Stress

What does actually stress mean to you?
Is it the motion for you to move forward?
Or is it the trigor factor of emo?
For me, stress is something very sad for me...
Cause of stress I cannot sleep ...
I cannot study well...
I am nervous about everything...
What can i actually do about it?

Life in this college is stressful....
People here is unpredictable...
Who can I trust here?
I don't know who is actually my friend here....
They may back stab you without thinking of your friendship....
Why?
What does friendship mean to you?
Sometimes I just don't know how they think about friendship...
They are taking it so lightly...
Please change yourself if you want your friends to stand by your side....
You won't be alone...
You are not alone...

I am pity of you sometimes...
You treat them as friends but they are gossiping bout you at the back...
After so much incidence happen, only I know that so many people hates you...
Don't you realize that?
Be honest to yourself and they will be honest to you...

I can do anything for my friends if they need my help.....
This is what I call friends....
Because I hope they will stand by my side and help me too when I am alone and hopeless...
I don't mean to ask for return but please do stand by my side when I need it...
I have my friends now and I am happy with it...
They may do something that we don't like sometimes...
But does not matter, accept it and take it as an experience to know more about your friend....
So sometimes I just keep quiet and continue to be friends....
I appreciate all my friendship....
Just that some time accident happen and misunderstanding happens....
It is sad....

People over here are changing...
They change cause of stress...
They change cause of environment...
They change cause of pear pressure....
So what can we do about it?

I just want to be a normal and simple person here....
I just want to graduate and pass all my exams...
Girls are gossip machine....
They can talk and talk and talk non stop....
Me too...

I love all of you my friends....

Friendship....

Finally, today is the day for me to go back to my home town...
It is 12.37 a.m.....
I want to meet my parents...
I want to meet my Boy friend...
I want to meet my long lost friend in Kl central also...
She was my neighbour for 15 years...
We had a fight when I was 15...
Now both of us are adults, so we MSN and talk on the phone...
I am really glad about that because it is quite hard to maintain a friendship like that...
I am quite regret about that childish fight...
Both of us think that...
hehe ^^
I am glad that we talk again...
Some more we are going to meet tomorrow....
I can't wait for the time to come...
Her name is Bobo...
Thank you for forgiving me and treat me as your friend again....
Thank you...

Yaya...
It is really hard to maintain a long long term friendship...
I don't know what to do now...
I am not angry or upset anymore...
Just that i don't know how to talk to her again....
I really want to help her but something is distracting me...
Disturbing my mind...
What can I do?
Honestly, I still feel that she cares about her more than me....
I am jealous...
Just like a girl jealous the couple and he guy who doesn't love her...
Yes I am that but I am not LESBIAN....
It is just that you did so much for the person but she is not showing any appreciation...
Is it my responsibility to take care of her??
Why you all come and question me?
Why can't you guys help her?
Why question me?
Why can't she open her mouth and ask for help?
Why must I the one to take the initiative to ask?
Is it a diamond or gold inside her mouth?
Why you all never ask her why but ask me??
No matter how she treat me, I am just a friend....
I am not the family member....
Some more she want to be independant and dependant in the wrong way....
She is too pampered ......
She doesn't want people to abandon her, to leave her aloone but she is doing that without knowing it....
What else can I do?
Can't you talk to me?
I am just sitting beside you...
I thought you got lots of friend?
Am I the only one you should depend on?
I am tired with that...
You are telling me a thing...
She is telling me the other thing....
It is very annoying~~~~
Very very very annoying~~~~
Tell me, tell me...
What else can I do?
Friends are easy to get but good friends, best friends are hard to get...
You can tell her everything and she can give you the best advise you think it is....
You guys go shopping together...
You scold her for not listening to you...
You praise her when she straighten her hair...
You talk to her when you are sad and she is always there for you...
So, why can't you all just sit down and talk?
Don't cry....
Just talk nicely....
Because you still treat her as friend, that is why you are angry ...
You care...
Just that you don't want to show that you care....
So you don't want to talk to her...
Don't you feel that it is childish?
Appreciate who you have now...
You should control your emotion but not letting your emotion to control you...
UNDERSTAND????
Think it with yourself....

This is a special message for Jocelyn Chai and Eva Loo...
I can only tell you guys in words....
I feel sad when both of you never talk...
I know it is really hard for you guys to forget what happened last Saturday...
But it is over now...
Jo, I know it is hard for you to forget what happen...
But she apologize...
She felt guilty...
She felt sad...
It is not all her fault...
She never know that Ms. K will ask her ...
She just tell because she was sad and she didn't know what to do...
It was just all misunderstanding....
Right?????
Think about it.....
Be understanding...
That is what I can tell...
Sorry for not talking to you for days Eva...
I'm sorry...

Sad or Happy or Helpful???

Should I be sad that You dislocate your Shoulder?
Should I be happy that doctor said you are fine already?
Should I be helpful that I am the only one you dare to trouble?

Or should I be dissapointed that you care her more than me as I am always the one who stay by your side when you need help????

I am Dissapointed, do you know that?

You don't know...
Do you know that I am also very angry when Miss Kat wanna see Jo?
Because you said you treat me as your sister but you never seek help from me...
Its all my fault is it?
Have you ever care about how I feel?
We have plan everything for you just that we didn't tell you...
Because we know you are stubborn and you want to be dependent...
So we planned and take action later...
But, it sounds like we are very cruel to you....

You are treating me differently from her and I am jealous...
Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha~! ! ! ! ! ! !
Is this how friends should be?
What else can I said?
Whatever, AS your good best friend.....
I will be there to help you...
Sincerely...
Helping you...
Because I care about you as my friend and I want to help you because you are alone here...
And Friends are the one you can depend on....
And I will be there for you no matter how you treat me...
But, I don't know how important am I in your heart...
Fine....
Sleep ba~~~~
Good night.....

Tired Day With Assignments..

Semester 3 is coming and it will be more stressful than before...
I'm the second year student and everything will be different than before...
Is it?
I am tired with all the assignments and journals...
2 more years o~
Aiks...
Deep in my heart. i know i Can do it because i really wanna be in this profession...
My result in semester 2 wasn't that good compare to semester one...
I have to work very very hard to get through my Semester 3...
I know I can do it...
My family and friends are supporting me very very much...

Things change...
Everything Change...
What I have to do is still the same
SHUT UP MY MOUTH....
I have stop it and try so hard to close my mouth...
So why can't you?
Is there any difference between you and me?
THINK IT PROPERLY~~~

Insomia

I CANNOT SLEEP LAR~~~~
DUNNO WHY CANNOT SLEEP....
I din dare to tell him...
i dun wan him to worried about me...
He is coming this Saturday, maybe after this everything will be fine....
So stress with all the precedures laR~
How?
What can i do now?
CANNOT SLEEP LAR~!!!!!!!!!

I am just trying to help...

Friend, I am just trying to help....
Why you scold me?
Why you want to scold me?
I am just giving her a solution, Why?
Yes, After the trauma i have change...
Good or bad?
I have to protect myself in this college....
I will just be myself....
No matter you like it or not, it is me...
Am i the one who change or you are?
I know you all are stress about the procedures that is why i am trying to help....
i am not showing off or else....
Just want to let you know i have done it and you are welcome to my ward...
i can ask for you if you want to...
Fine if you don't need my help....
I will just shut up and you can do what ever you want....
i cannot do anything about that....
Not need to say sorry to me...
It is always my fault...
It is always me that hurt other people....
It is always me...
What else can i do?
Nothing.....
I have to protect myself....


Friend, what happen to you?
What happen to you?
What have happen to you?
Sorry friend....

Finally Test 3 is done.....

Finally the test 3 is over!!!!!

I am so so so so glad that my test 3 is over and i think i have try my best to do it...
And we have oral evaluation also...
I cried...
I went through a lot of stress during Test 2 & 3...
My friend pass away and i got no time to go back home to see my parents...

I scared some day I will receive bad news bout my parents from the phone...
I can't take it anymore...
I once think of quitting this college because this college is really OMG....
I mean the education provided by the college is good but the people in this college is....

I don't care what you did to me and i will change what i have to...
I WILL STILL REMAIN MYSELF.....
I AM WHO I AM.......Two faces o~

Test 3

Finally, tomorrow is my last day of test 3...
My semester 2 is badly done...
My test 1 and test 2 result is poorly done...
OMG...
Posting coming soon o~
How?
procedure again?
My life in this college is so stressful...
Everything have to be done in time and cannot be postpond...
What can i do?
One year had passed....
Luckily...
Two more years in this college....
Please, Make it fast?

" New Life" In new room...

Finally....
After one year of suffering in Room 7, My tutor agree to change room for me...
Finally...
Today is consider a brand new day for me because new room new lifestyle...
I think that I can adapt well in this room...
Because other 3 of my room mate are very nice person...
What i have to do is follow their steps and i know i can do it...

Angel Tan was such a bad person before in Room 14, And it is time for Angel to change...
To become a better person...
To learn how to respect people...
Must see people eye to eye when talk to them....
Angel Tan is changing now...
become more mature than before o~
No matter what happen before, it is all past tense...
Shut up the mouth and become a better person o~
hehe....

i promise my friend that i will concentrate more in my study and graduate as a nurse in the future o~
And i know i can do it...
I know i can...

Stress up o~

bandage day...

1. Angel concentrating...
2.Angel is injured...
3.Serious Angel, Funny Diana...
4.Ouch, diana hit me~!!!
5.Concentrating again....

Finally it is done...

Finally our cheer leading competition is done......
And yeah~~~
we got 3rd place....
Good Good Good~!!!!