Friendship....

Finally, today is the day for me to go back to my home town...
It is 12.37 a.m.....
I want to meet my parents...
I want to meet my Boy friend...
I want to meet my long lost friend in Kl central also...
She was my neighbour for 15 years...
We had a fight when I was 15...
Now both of us are adults, so we MSN and talk on the phone...
I am really glad about that because it is quite hard to maintain a friendship like that...
I am quite regret about that childish fight...
Both of us think that...
hehe ^^
I am glad that we talk again...
Some more we are going to meet tomorrow....
I can't wait for the time to come...
Her name is Bobo...
Thank you for forgiving me and treat me as your friend again....
Thank you...

Yaya...
It is really hard to maintain a long long term friendship...
I don't know what to do now...
I am not angry or upset anymore...
Just that i don't know how to talk to her again....
I really want to help her but something is distracting me...
Disturbing my mind...
What can I do?
Honestly, I still feel that she cares about her more than me....
I am jealous...
Just like a girl jealous the couple and he guy who doesn't love her...
Yes I am that but I am not LESBIAN....
It is just that you did so much for the person but she is not showing any appreciation...
Is it my responsibility to take care of her??
Why you all come and question me?
Why can't you guys help her?
Why question me?
Why can't she open her mouth and ask for help?
Why must I the one to take the initiative to ask?
Is it a diamond or gold inside her mouth?
Why you all never ask her why but ask me??
No matter how she treat me, I am just a friend....
I am not the family member....
Some more she want to be independant and dependant in the wrong way....
She is too pampered ......
She doesn't want people to abandon her, to leave her aloone but she is doing that without knowing it....
What else can I do?
Can't you talk to me?
I am just sitting beside you...
I thought you got lots of friend?
Am I the only one you should depend on?
I am tired with that...
You are telling me a thing...
She is telling me the other thing....
It is very annoying~~~~
Very very very annoying~~~~
Tell me, tell me...
What else can I do?
Friends are easy to get but good friends, best friends are hard to get...
You can tell her everything and she can give you the best advise you think it is....
You guys go shopping together...
You scold her for not listening to you...
You praise her when she straighten her hair...
You talk to her when you are sad and she is always there for you...
So, why can't you all just sit down and talk?
Don't cry....
Just talk nicely....
Because you still treat her as friend, that is why you are angry ...
You care...
Just that you don't want to show that you care....
So you don't want to talk to her...
Don't you feel that it is childish?
Appreciate who you have now...
You should control your emotion but not letting your emotion to control you...
UNDERSTAND????
Think it with yourself....

This is a special message for Jocelyn Chai and Eva Loo...
I can only tell you guys in words....
I feel sad when both of you never talk...
I know it is really hard for you guys to forget what happened last Saturday...
But it is over now...
Jo, I know it is hard for you to forget what happen...
But she apologize...
She felt guilty...
She felt sad...
It is not all her fault...
She never know that Ms. K will ask her ...
She just tell because she was sad and she didn't know what to do...
It was just all misunderstanding....
Right?????
Think about it.....
Be understanding...
That is what I can tell...
Sorry for not talking to you for days Eva...
I'm sorry...

Sad or Happy or Helpful???

Should I be sad that You dislocate your Shoulder?
Should I be happy that doctor said you are fine already?
Should I be helpful that I am the only one you dare to trouble?

Or should I be dissapointed that you care her more than me as I am always the one who stay by your side when you need help????

I am Dissapointed, do you know that?

You don't know...
Do you know that I am also very angry when Miss Kat wanna see Jo?
Because you said you treat me as your sister but you never seek help from me...
Its all my fault is it?
Have you ever care about how I feel?
We have plan everything for you just that we didn't tell you...
Because we know you are stubborn and you want to be dependent...
So we planned and take action later...
But, it sounds like we are very cruel to you....

You are treating me differently from her and I am jealous...
Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha~! ! ! ! ! ! !
Is this how friends should be?
What else can I said?
Whatever, AS your good best friend.....
I will be there to help you...
Sincerely...
Helping you...
Because I care about you as my friend and I want to help you because you are alone here...
And Friends are the one you can depend on....
And I will be there for you no matter how you treat me...
But, I don't know how important am I in your heart...
Fine....
Sleep ba~~~~
Good night.....

Tired Day With Assignments..

Semester 3 is coming and it will be more stressful than before...
I'm the second year student and everything will be different than before...
Is it?
I am tired with all the assignments and journals...
2 more years o~
Aiks...
Deep in my heart. i know i Can do it because i really wanna be in this profession...
My result in semester 2 wasn't that good compare to semester one...
I have to work very very hard to get through my Semester 3...
I know I can do it...
My family and friends are supporting me very very much...

Things change...
Everything Change...
What I have to do is still the same
SHUT UP MY MOUTH....
I have stop it and try so hard to close my mouth...
So why can't you?
Is there any difference between you and me?
THINK IT PROPERLY~~~